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Suzanna Wong

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Thursday, May 31, 2007
+.+ Tell Me Why Do I Love U So Much +.+




Overslept once again and didn't meet up dear, in the end he have to come down J.E to fetch me.. sRy darling, i know im bad =\

Went to Marina Square, walk around and saw the ring but there isn't anymore the gold colour but the silver 1.. Sian.. The gem dropping and dropping Zzz..

Later on went to eat Yuki Yaki, first time eating there but i tink its cheaper and alot better then others.. lolx.. Dear did alot of unsightful stuff, u know what i meant and mass eating squid scary us.. lolx.. 1st time eating steamboat with uE, njoy it lots..

Later on headed to watch Shrek 3.. I LOVE GINERBREAD MAN SO CUTE CAN!!! hmm does he have a name? I didn't take note =( I watched the movie because of the COOKIE and i miss the previous movies cause no 1 accompany me =( still I LOVE GINERBREAD MAN, funni fairytale and GINERBREADMAN CUTE =x ok sRY im being irrating but his really very cute =p Mac Donald kid's meal gt free gingerbreadman toy which i'm gone BUY but dono when.. =X Cookie ftw..

After the movies, went to get some snacks before heading to the esplande to walk but we took a longer route cause darling ben ben de =X unbelieveable that during weekdays its crowded with people, perhaps tml is holidae tat explains it.

Finally found a spot and settle down, chit chat alot of stuff about some past and darling makes me remind of ur HER.. hate u.. Hehe.. But still i'm happy that despite being couples, we still being able to talk anything under the sun liked how we used to when we r friends.. Took alot of pics too..

After coming out from the toilet, u disappear.. @@ when to get some gurls or guys? lolx.. U told me u saw quite some people carrying flowers, thinking that somewhere nearby sold went to take a look @@ wanted to suprise me with it.. lolx.. I want 999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
not asking much =X lolx.. Dear thx for being sweet it doesnt matter if there is flowers anot, what matters is tat u love me and stay by my side.. All i ever need is u.. I'm so in love with u.. I love uE.. I buy bone for u nxt time or perhaps give u boney? =x

It's sweet of u to pei wo wait for the bus, thanks again darling..

With ♥ From Suzanna [3:02 AM]




Tuesday, May 29, 2007
+.+ I Hate U +.+

What wrong have i done?

To born in this world?

If u hated me that much, why do u still let me come to this world..

What did i do?

To let u scold me for no reasons, to let u pick on me..

You have been bias all this while, wat can i do but to keep quiet..

Why am i always been blame? Even it't not my fault..

Forcing myself not to cry everytime ur lidat..

Wat do u really want? Tell me..

Just tell me im nt ur daughter perhaps i'll be glad..

With ♥ From Suzanna [10:11 PM]




Saturday, May 26, 2007
+.+ Hate GouGou, Hide his bone ftw +.+

1st i got to apologies.. Sorry for being so late...

Got out of my house late when I'm suppose to meet him earlier, dear was sweet enough not letting me go alone instead.. Thanks.. Met half way at Commonwealth cause I'm already so late.. Reach Paya Lebar, wanted to cab down but there wasn't any cab so in the end took the bus down..

Had 2 games with a.H team 1 we lose both game but really 2nd game can win 1 lol.. still very emo over the lose to them cause they are not really good.. All we need now is to train up our engagement skills, mirco and learn more hero's but still we did improve compare to the previous times and most important we have learn to talk about mistakes, discuss and I'm really glad.. Jia you all of us, let's be the best gurl team in sg.. hehe..

2nd i have to apologies again.. Playing badly

After the 2nd game I'm already mood less but still i carry playing on with them against some people at GG, playing really badly and my micro is gg =X so much for not training viper anymore.. I prefers not having Zibi heroes especially in our team =x it's alot harder.. After emo-ing went for 2nd game against them again but this time maki was playing, still i wasnt in good mood so i played like pub no stress. hehe lose =X I have to learn to control my emotions though im a more emotion person..

After game, thinking tat can go home le but GOUGOU just start game.. i hate him =\ In the end 5am then went home, share cab with sher & Lei, talked about some stuff and having some gurls talk when we r online..

Doggy pester me not letting me sleep till its like 7am.. Sicko =X

Sat~

Time passes really quickly and its already sat night, time with u is certainly not enough..

Woke up at 5+.. SO TIRED.. I'm too weak to ton overnight compare to being at home.. After eating went out with darling to pasa malam at woodlands.. The pasa malam gt UK fun fair, went to play those games and won alot stickers.. Haha.. and 4 stickers in exchange of 1 piglet =X Got 1 small birdy too and it looks like him so ben de.. hEhe..

Was force to pei him play 1 of those type like in escape.. That was really insane cause i won't possible even do that but just to pei him and its freaking wants my life, so scary and i was screaming like no tml + i tink i zhao geng too =X There won't be a next time I'll rather die then.. LOL..

Went to buy some food before heading home..

With ♥ From Suzanna [7:32 PM]




Friday, May 25, 2007
+.+ I cant find any reasons to stop loving u +.+

Was dota-ing all the way last night, was suppose to go down Eg later on but went down earlier but change of mind half way and went down to fetch Hengky from school, was meant to be a suprise but tmd de he knows im coming down.. Zzzzz

Went to buy cheese cake xD~ and went to eat gosu laksa near the DG mrt, before headed down to EG.. Nearly fell aslp when darling was match-ing while waitin for the others to arrive..

Todae match lose again but then i seriously thinks that we improves alot, just tat we have to take note of our mistake.. Headed back home earlier while the rest contine, sry abt it - mei you last train later.. lolx.. And the training room is REALY VERY HOT.. we are all cooked KouRouBao..

It's sweet tat darling send me half way though cause he wont b having last train if he send me home, still thanks alot..

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With ♥ From Suzanna [2:01 AM]




Thursday, May 24, 2007
+.+ Loving Ue Is All That Matters +.+

Tue~

I was late again and darling didn't seems really happi.. Tired so hard but still he seems emo emo de.. Perhaps cause of what happen ytd ba.. But it makes me realise that u really meant alot to me so much that i can feel ur pain.. Im sry..
So sweet gt cheese cake again.. Love u..

Went to P.S, ate some cold stuff and brought sushi.. so long nve eat le.. ltr on headed to watch blade of glory.. A MUZ WATCH MOVIE, its so farking funni and really freaking gay.. bth.. Some more 1 guy infront of me laffing so hard =X tat makes it more funni.. Darling so bad bully me again <- u knoe de.. hehe..

After movie, went to do some stuff before heading home.. hehe..
Thx for sending me home again.. I love uE..

After what happened tat day, i will learn to cherish u more and as usual to love u more.. I'll make up all the sadness i have cost.. I just hate see-ing u sad.. Ur my everything..

Dota-ing the whole nite again and in the morning went to cook some stuff..


Wed~

OVERSLEPT again =.=" Suppose to wake up at 3pm but slept till 4pm.. Arhh so much for overnite dota-ing.. lolx..

Before i even reach far east, he ended his lesson and called me while his on bus..lol.. Poor dear have to walk back..
Went to get him the earring cause he wanted to get it the other day and i tink he forgot, was saying ltr come back.. lolx.. Saw Cm and D with 2 gurls, dating sia =X Got him the blue n white earring, damn nice =p

Rush down quickly and meet him up at Toa.p before headed down to Bishan..
I saw Pirates of the carribean showing liao, wtf that is suppose to be on Thur.. But didn't watch cause looking at the time late le ba, went to eat and the pepper is hard Zzz.. Darling ate the food i brought, hope its nice.. lol..

Headed home cause his toes is hurting + tml his lesson is early.. On the way home, was tinking i wanted to watch the pirates so much, asked him to pei wo to watch near my hse and he agree.. xD Luckily we are just in time for the movie and i haven been there since its revnovated, quite nice..

The movie lasted about 2hr 45mins, was shocked to see the time when it ended.. The movie wasn't so nice compare to the previous few.. Kinda disapointed.. lol but still its nice.. I'll prefer to watch blade of glory.. lolx.. Headed home and poor darling have to cab home.. Thx for everything darling and i hope u like what i give u... Most impt take care of urself esp ur toes, already swollen le try to get ur letter and don wear shoe le alrite.. It's hurts to see u lidat, esp just now when the kid step on u or something..

Loving Ue In Process.. and it won't stop.. I have finally dislike emo songs, thx to u sweetie..

And

Call or Sms will be stop, anithing tat makes u sad, i will avoid even i do feels guilty but still ur everything that matters, to ease ur worries and to prevent anything tat spoilts our r/s.. I give u my word.. Love Ue..


Lastly i still hope we gurls are putting in more effort in training up tgt as Capl is really near and we are still slacking like when we join Igc.. Still take some time out and play tgt ba, no more losing to sai team like the other day..

With ♥ From Suzanna [3:08 AM]




Monday, May 21, 2007
+.+ I'm Really Sorry +.+

I'm sry.. I know no matter how mani sorry, i wont make up the hurt i cause..

I'm sry..

I felt ur pain, ur saddness and ur anger..

I'm sRy..

I'm really lost, really lost.. no matter how much i tired to cheer u up, u seems to be immune..

I'm sRy..

No matter what i told u, u will said " Don't think too much"

when ur heart is ach-ing badly, when i was the 1 that hurts u so much..

I'm sRy..

sRy i did things that didn't consider ur feelings, i'm so afraid now cause what have happen, have cause a crack between us, it affected u, that's the last thing i hate to see.. is u to be sad..

I'm sRy..

Watever i can do to make u feels better, even just a little let me know.. Anithing for uE to feels better..

I'm sRy..

Heart in pains, cRying once again.. I Love uE & tell me how to stop ur pain..

I'm sRy

No matter what happens, i just hope this thing doesn't affect us much and still as usual, my love for u will onli gets deeper n deeper each single dae, to me ur my world and nothing else matters anymore.. From the dae we r tgt, i haven given my word and it will stay this way till we r gone from this world.. I love uE..

With ♥ From Suzanna [11:56 PM]




+.+ My Love For U Will Nve End +.+

Fri~

Was making our 1mth anniversary card till morning and wanted to stay awake through out and ltr on make the jelly as he request but after 1 1/2 game i'm like bth le, wakie my bro n play for me lolx.. After 3hrs wakie to do but was so tired, nearly died =x Was telling him that i will meet him after school but didn't cause i slept and the jelly needs time to cool down =\ So sorry all this while, either i overslept or im not feeling well, in the end nve meet u after school but making u come down to fetch me..

Anyway after that he came down to fetch me and i'm suppose to go J.P get something but in the end i was late again =x He came all the way down J.P to meet and fetch me back home again =p Simply love ue lots for doing all this, all this while.. Will it still be the same after 2mths or so? =x

Wanted to pass him the presents tml as sat is the actual day but in the end i just pass him cause ltr on meeting ying.. Gave him a wallet, bottle of stars & Heart, jelly and card.. I tink the card looks reali indian.. HAHA.. What matters is he likes it but when i gave it to him, no expression again like so bu kai xin de.. =(

After that went out to eat with Ying at chompchomp <- tink is lidat spell.. The food was nice and again i spotted him doing something =.= so did ying.. lolx.. Thanks ying for ur birthdae present, again 1 week late like last yr.. lolx..

Sat~

Went down to GG todae cause jio-ed Fal- their team for lan match but Lz didn't came as she overslept and the worst thing is we lose 2 games to them and some more cab down n cab back is =.=" Can sense dearie wasn't really happy cause lose to them.. LOL.. Jio them play at nite but in the end they bo reply de.. After that went to eat and cab home..

What a day to celebrate 1mth anniversary LOL..

Stupid doggy made me so sad cause ur dota-ing u ignore me (U know what i meant) lolx..

Sundae~

LaSt night was so emo cause i thot of certain things and in the end i cried, u already fell aslp but i woke u up to pei wo.. sRy.. Really needed you to be there for me.. Saw u awake quite early, was kinda suprised cause u piggy wor =x and u told me ur emo cause of the bad dream.. That wont happen xD don worry.. I love uE..

He wear so smart todae so SHUAI or, i keep telling him SO SHUAI tink his sian or Hehe.. Never once he wear lidat with me de.. so shuai, i'm gone pester u wear lidat everytime we go out.. hee..

Went to vivo to watch movie and its kinda lame cause thats my first time watching movie there =.= Went to watch "Next" was quite not bad but the ending quite lame.. lolx.. After that dae, my gastric came back he keep ask me to eat, worried tat i might be hungry.. so sweet.. hehe.. After movies went to eat, gosu hokkien mee & oyster dono wad.. lol.. So sweet of him to send me home again..

I guess my phone is gone case.. haha.. tinking back its still alive after the soupy accident.. lolx.. Was talking to Boney and his finding job too so tag along.. Wanted to find job after Capl but i tink its gone case, not training so jiu lidat ba.. lol..

And

Hengky- ok Ming Heng i shld try to be xi guan lolx.. I really hope u liked what i gave u and most important no matter what happens between us, be it happy or sad don't end this r/s alrite.. I love u and u really matters alot to me.. Muack...

Ur the one that can make my world goes round.. muackz..

With ♥ From Suzanna [1:15 AM]




Friday, May 18, 2007
+.+ I love To Eat DOG MEAT +.+

Tired like hell ytd and manage to get to sleep at 6am, stupid doggy ur fault ur gone pay.. *hehe*

Slept till 4+ cause my brother kb-ing that i keep asks him to wake me up but i keep fell back to sleep.. After eating and preparing its already 6+ and Darling is so nice to came down and meet me again, with the scary liang sha again.. Nxt time u sick ur so GG-ed.. =X but still thanks alot and my fav CHEESE CAKE xD~ Really so nice or..

After that went to P.S to check the price of certain stuff but hmm too exp =( getting something else then, cause not working =( Poor me, need find work soon.. Went down to Eg and i made gougou late and they already started without him..

Nothing much as usual we lose again.. sian, every thur is PMS day.. lolx.. Esp Namkie he suX.. Lz and jy so bad disturb me =X Dear was busy in game too, so we don't have much time to talk and todae special i went home myself =X hehe but didn't blame u.. I love uE.. Miss u so much todae but u gone fell aslp le.. sian.. >,<~

With ♥ From Suzanna [1:52 AM]




Thursday, May 17, 2007
+.+ Can someone Give Me S.P.C.A Number +.+

After ytd i realise about why i can't felt ur love, perhaps im xi guan to stuff fL00r did and immune to uE =X lolx.. I sort things out and realise tat the problem lies with me but i will change the thinking and the xi guan-ness =)

Darling was sweet that he came down to fetch me cause his worried that im still not feeling well, brought me liang cha and CHEESE CAKE.. =X The liang cha is reali pawning, so KU CAN!!! but its his kind intention, i finished it and his so bad don even wanne drink some for me =\ Even avoid kissing me.. I HATE U muz share 1 ma... lol..

After we met up, he brought me to see some people selling some magic stuff.. interesting.. it can move by itself.. @@!!

Decided to go Orchard to shop for some clothes but fail to find any.. Sry for walking the wrong way twice.. LOL.. In the end walk to Heeren to shop but end up taking neo-print.. Went for movies later on, 28weeks ltr.. its like resident evil show.. ER XIN FTW!! *Dear i wan something but i just can't wait till fri =( ur fault <- u know what i mean.. I WAN NOW CAN =(

I WAN EAT KFC & U DON ALLOW.. HATE U..

Was on the Mrt and i pop a qns and he dont even remember the date when we r tgt.. I HATE U GOUGOU, IM CALLING S.P.C.A TO PUT U TO SLEEP.. Though was quite sad and nearly cried on the way home, thinking perhaps i didn't meant alot to u thats why?? Dono.. Nxt time i'll just call S.P.C.A and no cheese cakie =( u bring home..

Silly~ don't blame urself le alrite, im fine.. No matter what happens, i'll always love ue.. Someone leave me S.P.C.A number? Just in case...

Reach home le, saw the post by the zibi tutbiz licking was kinda pissed off but got better le, i seriously pity him for a moment.. perhaps he has no friends and need to be such a desperate attention seeker.. SAD.. /mourn

With ♥ From Suzanna [1:33 AM]




Monday, May 14, 2007
+.+ Take It Im A BITCH +.+

Did something really wrong yesterday, i copy what fL00r said and paste to Hengky.. Hengky got so angry, pm fL00r and scold i suppose.. fL00r was so dulan with me and after he quited IRC he msg me for Hengky number.. Got really emo last nite.. cried again.. sad-ed..

Woke up with fever, went to eat and sleep again and darling suddenly called me saying that his reaching my house, i thot im like dreaming.. lol.. Went to bath and meet him up, i force him to show me his hp, saw the msgs it isn't like its from fL00r but it is.. Liked u said i treat Jason, u and ask Hengky to take care.. yes ur the 1 who understand me most and understand wtf happen to me n Jason, i can only said SORRY its my bad that i broke off with u.. Hate me all u one, blame me all u one.. Perhaps we won't be friends anymore then so be it and towards Hengky no such thing will happen, don't wry.. I have wanted to be with him a yr ago..

fL00r thanks for everything u did for me, all ur love and care.. Thanks again..
Liked u said " I saw her true colours" yes i saw urs too.. THANKS ALOT OK.. For making me so guilty so emo all this while...

Darling thanks for coming down, bringing me food and the CHEESE CAKE =p Nve thot u will come down, so sweet of us and went to buy some stuff before he heads home.. Sry about last nite.. I love u no matter what.. =)

With ♥ From Suzanna [8:33 PM]




Friday, May 11, 2007
+.+ Wo Ai Ni Ming Heng Though My Teddy Bear Is Cuter But I love Teddy More +.+

Finally im grat and got my cert todae..

Chat up with classmates and some keep disiao me.. It took forever to finish, guest of honour reached at 2.50 when we are supposed to be there at 130.. -.-".. Chat up with my teacher and he told me alot, thanks again for all the help u have done for me..

I really need time to think what i really want in future..

Went down to Eg for lan training but 2 of them didn't come, don't wanne talk much about it ba.. I just hope there is commitment ba and we guys ops its gurls really have those spirit like guys.. If still lidat, i might quit ba... Im tired.. nvm..

Nerding badly for the 2 games, sorry sher and everyone else... I'm doing really badly.. Knowing something gone happen and tat im gone die, i stil go -.-" wtf am i doing.. I will go train up more, no more TMM with gougou.. =x

For this 20yrs, i have never ask any guy this qns but uE and ur ans makes me quite upset n disappoint ba.. Maybe i shouldn't ask? Cause i thot u might said something more possible, like working this tgt to make this work.. Sometimes i realli envy maki/lingzi & Sher/lei.. being able to c each other when u sleep and when u just wake up.. oh well.. nvm just take it i nve ask..

I love u no matter what.. Muack...

With ♥ From Suzanna [2:55 AM]




Wednesday, May 09, 2007
+.+ Heart Sank +.+

Feeling really upset..

Feeling really tired cause i haven slp..

EmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmoEmo..


Haven sleep since last nite cause i wanted to make jelly for him, knowing that i can't wake up early, i stayed up the whole nite to dota till morning.. Recently dota spoilts my mood, either im nerding or im just anyhow playing.. Seriously i need to train more and WAKE UP!!

He was released early like 3pm? when im still at home searching for my hat.. He wanted me to tie 2 and wore a hat, i did.. though i gt to say i look childish ._. don't ask me why i did that anyway.. I didn't know either..

He took the train down to meet me halfway through the journey, sRy that u have to come down all this times, instead of me fetching u as i promise.. =( sRy..

Went down to Vivo again as there isn't any place we wanne go but just slack around.. Just walk around before settling down to rest and i fell aslp ._. and the wind is freaking COLD.. Nice weather though but i just hate to be cold...

Everything was sweet and nice until i spotted u doing certain things twice.. I didn't said a word cause im tired and u keep denied.. (Don't say don have i saw it with my own eyes)... It reminds me of Jason, the sadness the quarrel when we talk about this topic, i know ur diff from him but tat feeling came back again.. I hate it.. It may be a small matter at all but to me i SERIOUSLY FARKING DON LIKE.. I just hate my bf doing that.. Don't ask me why...

After we reach J.E Mrt station i told him to leave first giving some excuses cause i wanted to be alone.. Was thinking alot and i nearly cried but didn't, too tired for tears to flow..


For all that u did, i'm really happy and i really apperciate but i'm sRy i got to say, i still don't feel the secure, don't ask me why.. I dono..

Did u really love me that much liked u said?

Did u say things that you meant?

Did u promise me with only words?

Did u fall for me because i'm in love with u?

Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts Doubts...

Yes i'm always emo and i'm sry but i just can't help it, all this things are messing with my mind since the day i loved u.... Sometimes i find it hard to talk to u about certain stuff since the day u became my bf, i really need to tink before i talk in case i said something hurtful though u always ensure me but im uncertain about ur heart.. Still thinking about her? I dono..

Falling too deep for u makes me really scared of losing u, i doesn't want to have another torture it hurts..

I NEED YOU

I LOVE YOU

I NEED YOU TO SHOWER ME WITH LOVE

I NEED UR ATTENTION

I NEED UR CARE

I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U
I NEED U

After talking to Boney i felt alot better, thanks again for making me feel better.. Sometimes i really rather u talk to him for me.. Perhaps like what u said i haven slp and im not thinking straight but at least i wrote all out, i feels alot better...

Will i be able to have a peaceful slp later? Doubt not.. I got no mood...

Ming Heng darling, no matter what happens i'll be the 1st there for u and i'll always love u since the day i fall for u..

Hopefully sher will feels better and some things be solve soon ( u know what i mean) and Lz, pls sleep more ok esp when ur sick now.. take good care.. <3 uE all..



I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U
I LOVE U

With ♥ From Suzanna [9:27 PM]




Tuesday, May 08, 2007
+.+ I love Ue So Ming Heng +.+

Can't get to sleep + Overnite gaming nearly kills my day rotting at home, esp when it's my BIRTHDAY.. Arhh it just reminds me im 20.. Damit.. I'm Old t.t

Was struggling whether to meet darling cause i'm so tired though he doesn't mind if we r not meeting but after long struggle i met him up..

Poor darling came all the way down to meet me and waited for like 30mins+ cause im LATE again, i know as usual.. Sorry >.<~

When to Vivo to walk around and bought chocolate for my teacher and GouGou.. Hope gougou really likes it.. Hmm.. Stupid GouGou was looking at gurls and i saw it.. =\ Arhh.. Hate him..

Saw long Q of donuts but it isn't the same as the 1 in Raffles.. GouGou i wan donuts *Hint* =X lolx.. Jk.. Brought some food and went to tmm, great sea views though quite alot of people.. Chat alot and TMM =X (u know i know) hehe..

Cuteky, u gt realli me ren de yan jing.. Damnit so cute can't stop looking at uE.. Muz take care of urself wor cause ur nose sentivite.. And

I Love Ue & it will only be u for the rest of my life..

I want nothing but u... I Love uE..

With ♥ From Suzanna [2:01 AM]




Sunday, May 06, 2007
+.+ Thanks for melting my heart +.+

Didn't know why it can't seems to load when im using the other com at his house..

Fri~

Wasn't feeling well so didn't meet him up after school but cab down at around 5+, darling friend accompany him to wait for me.. so nice =) Anyway i was so pissed off cause the cab driver tour-ing me around Tampines, the cab fare is like $24 when he said "Im sry i tink im lost , i'll charge u lesser later" He charge me $22 which is still so EXP.. =.= Cab fare will be alot cheaper if i reach Pasir Ris.. Stupid driver.. Thanks for making me damn poor the rest of the days.. =.="

Accompany him home and stay at his house this few days..

Sat~

Didn't went out today instead eating steamboat at his house.. So nice of him being so sweet, helping me cook, peel prawns + feeding me... I'm so pampered xD~
Thanks for pampering me so much.. Love u..

Darling so cute 1130 liao still eating steamboat when we are supposed to meet Ying at 1130 for prata... Meet him up & a friend to go Thomson & eat, lots of people and he went to order curry chix too, I tink the curry chix is nicer then the prata lol but poor dear having a hard time to pluck the chix but still u pluck for me.. Love u..

Went lan after that but i didn't bring my IC, can't even stay inside or =.= my fault that in the end all of us went home =( sRy.. Saw Gw they all too, surprising..

Reach home le, he was playing 1 game pei him awhile and went to bath.. After his game he pei wo awhile before going to bath, while waiting for him i fell aslp.. He woke me up and i can't sleep le but after his game started i fell aslp again.. lolx..
(sry darling, u know what i mean =X)hehe..
Poor dear doesn't dare to wake mi up again in case i can't felt asleep..

The first thing being able to c u when i woke up really filled my days with happiest.. =) Love U..

I was blogging half way and he called me out to cut cake though tml is my actually birthdae but its kidna weird cause i haven been celebrating my birthday with cake.. It's really sweet of him, that he already prepared all this which i never thot he will.. A heart shape cake so cute and 2 presents =) What melts my heart again is that, i have been randomly telling him i wanted 100 lollipop or u cant this n that =X and he really got it for me.. 100 @@ Thanks darling.. Love U..


Darling, thanks for celebrating my birthday, thanks for the surprise, thanks for making me really happy, thanks for the everything that makes my heart melt.. I love u and i never thought u will do all this.. Thanks for loving me... U open my heart to love u more.. I will always remember what u did for me todae.. Thanks sweeetie.. I love U..

With ♥ From Suzanna [5:44 PM]




Friday, May 04, 2007
+.+ <3 dNGirls- +.+

Actually i was suppose to meet him after school (5pm) but i was so tired that i woke up at 330pm after Ying called me.. Rushing to buy lens cause i'm out of lens le + the lens really wasted me lots of time.. Cuteky came to JE to meet me before cabbing down.. Poor darling hp no batt, remember to charge ur hp nxt time wor..

Was really suprised that u came all the way down instead of meeting me at D.G.. Thankx alot sweetie..

My lens really making me feels so uncomfortable!! Reached at around 645, they are already at Suki but we went down to eat at the food court, most awful satay meehoon and looking at the food his eating.. Big differnce =.=" Bu shi ren eat de food...

Our Match started at 8pm cause Jy and nam was no where to be found, i suppose we r late tat nam and the others when to play snooker.. lol..

Lost our 1st game, alot of us are nerding and im the viper who scared to chiong a lvl4 pugna & Qop =( Really need to dota more le..

2nd game was great, we played really well.. My zeus gt beyond godlike and 1 death =X was really happi though i was nerding at sometimes.. Still im learning my numpad.. xD
reaction will be slow abit.. Jy really did a great job, wudi loa.. When ur dying, u will always c her with heal n shield.. WOOT.. Lei is another imbal farmer making the bear damn poor lol.. Great Job Guys <3 <3 <3
Finally nam died~ xD~ Zap ftw =X Stop stalking my blog and Cuteky lolx..

Was glad that cuteky was pei-ing me when im playing and while on the way to the MRT station we r playing lolx.. Simply loves to bully uE and loves uE for hong wo~ Hehe..

Nthing much just to let u noE, i love uE and nothing else really matters to me but uE.. All i wanted is to stay with u for the rest of my life.. =) Sher <3 =X

Tml i'm gone buy lots of pocky, don sad ok.. 10box nia... =p
Thanks Cuteky darling for sending me home again..
Eyes still feeling realli uncomfortable till now ='(

With ♥ From Suzanna [1:30 AM]




Thursday, May 03, 2007
+.+ Nothing Else Matter But Ue, I love Sher +.+

12.30pm still at home, chatting in IRC.. omfg? cause Cuteky gone finish sch at 1pm..

Cab down and the cab uncle talk alot about investment asking me to come down and attend their lessons, saying that they can earn 10K+/mth.. Kinda not believing but i just leave my number.. I won't pick up either =X lolx..

Reach his school le, he's stil eating and i waited awhile outside though it's kinda weird that ppl keep looking at me -.-" Just doesn't like tat kind of attention.. Perhaps im just weird.. lol..

We went down to Ps straight away, eat and slack around before heading to Cathy and slack again.. lol.. Was Tmm-ing =X (Ue knows) hehe.. Fridae i sure win prepare to bei BITE.. wooooT =X *hehe*

After sher n lei came, went to buy popcorn and Cuteky ate the first pcs which is salty but his expression so cute like the way he ate his pocky.. =X

Spiderman 3 was petty nice though sher n cuteky was saying its ok but stil i prefers 3 then the 2nd 1.. lol.. Sher n Lei we shld go out more.. Sher it's great to have a friend lyk u.. <3 Sher

Headed to egames to find fez before going down to eat and we chat alot abt some stuff and after fez came he ate 1 plate of sphatti, he wanted to eat some more.. Scary.. Wondering how can he eat so much.. lol..

After my mum called, i was emo-ing the day through.. Headed down to EG to play 1 game and we lose though perhaps im nerding liked i did this few days ba.. dono.. EMO and Cuteky so poor thing trying to cheer me up but not enuff dear =X lol..

Still emo-ing while on the way home but got alot better though.. Dota makes me EMO!! =x Poor Cuteky gone be the bad guy again over some stuff and hopefully lester don go fan him anymore too, after talking to him so much he still doesn't wanne change his mind set.. =.="

So full when i reach home but there is so much food to eat and Cuteky bth aso go eat lol.. I gone have a BIG teddy bear for my birthdae which is u darling... Hehe... Birthdae coming soon and im gone be 20.. 20... 20... 20.. 20.. so old or.. =(

Cuteky specially for uE: - Sry wait so long and u fell aslp.. I love u Hubby!!

I'm not the best there is; I don't know the words to say,
To show you that I really care in each and every way.
Sometimes I think I'm dreaming, sometimes I think I'm dead,
So afraid I will awake and find it's what I dread.

I find it hard to comprehend, that you could love me so,
I just know I love the way you fill my heart and soul.
It's more than just a fling for me; it's more than simple love,
For me this is all there is, and I thank the lord above.

If, by chance, this is a dream I never want to wake,
To lose you now would simply be too much for me to take.
If this is just a dream I dreamt then take me in my sleep,
For this is just the type of dream that I would like to keep.

It's more than I can imagine, more than I can hope,
That this is real and you are mine, if only I can cope,
With real love so true and strong, so vital to my heart,
I pray each day I won't awake; for fear that we will part.

If this is truly not a dream and all is truly real.
I hope I can love you more and all your needs fulfill.
It's more than I deserve to have and more than I can dream,
I wonder if it's in God's plan and in his holy scheme,

That we are one forevermore; that I belong to you,
I only know the way I feel and know that this is true.
No matter what may happen from now to the end of life.
The only thing that matters most, is that you become my wife

With ♥ From Suzanna [1:55 AM]




Tuesday, May 01, 2007
+.+ Wad Do I Want +.+

I dono what have i been doing, i ask myself..

EMO!!!

Farking no mood right now? Because of U or the Game?? -.-"

ARhhh..

Been nerding in games recently, seriously wtf am i doing?? -.-"

ARhhh

Quarrel with mum... What the hell she wants?? -.-"

I questions myself, question my heart..

What the fark i want..

With ♥ From Suzanna [3:09 PM]